Jesus, Take the Wheel
I have tried to not blog about Huntington’s disease in an effort to not let it define me, and that that becomes what my whole life is about. So in an effort to keep things normal, I limit those posts. Today, though, has been one of those days where it has hit me from all sides. I am only one person. I am trying so hard and failing so miserably. Five hours of sleep every night is not cutting it. Incompetent doctors are not cutting it. Living with it all is not cutting it. Do you think anyone would notice if I ran away from home? That’s not even a luxury that I can afford. Too many things depend on me. I know one thing for sure. And that is I cannot do this on my own.
“Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can’t do this on my own”
I know in my own life that anytime I’ve tried to go it alone, I’ve done a lot of stupid things and been very unhappy. Having God in my life and leaning on him makes all the difference.
Suzanne
You are right, Suzanne. It doesn’t usually end well when we try to do things in our own strength. He is mightier who lives in us. I’m so thankful today was a better day. Yesterday was definitely one of my “meltdown moments”.